I've done the blog thing. Like three times. I just can't keep up with it. I get bored with it. I cant handle the demands that I feel are put on bloggers who want a successful blog. (Not that my blogs were ever "successful", but somehow I still felt the pressure). This blog will probably be plain for awhile. Or maybe forever. But I need somewhere I can go to track my journey with food addiction. My journey to finding satisfaction in Christ alone, rather than the comfort food can (very temporarily) bring.
I feel like a completely different person than I was. And not in a good way. I've let myself go...which I of course vowed never to do. That was before I became a mom, before financial problems and the stress that brings, before my husband and I got really comfortable with our life. Comfort is a great thing, but it can also be what makes you settle, and before you know it, you're not the person you dreamed to become.
I don't know how much personal info I'll give out. For now, Im not giving my name or location because I want to be able to write whatever is on my mind without anyone knowing who I am. I want to be totally anonymous, but painfully honest, so that anyone reading this blog who may be going through the same thing, can relate to and not feel so alone. Because food addiction can be lonely. And embarrassing. Especially if you grew up very active, was the sports star of your high school, and never had issues with weight. To look at me, you wouldn't call me obese. Just a little overweight. But when you're the person, you feel ugly, worthless, disgusting....you feel all the weight that others don't see.
I love this life God has sooo graciously blessed me with. I don't want to sound like a Debbie Downer who is depressed all the time. I have a ton to be thankful for. I don't want to be a complainer.....something the Lord is gently leading me away from.
I just want an outlet to share my thoughts. To share my victories and my failures. My progress. Hopes. Dreams. Encouragement. Reality.
If you're following me on this journey to being satisfied in the Lord, and not in food (or any other thing apart from Him), then welcome. I'm glad you're here =)
